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Another Doctor's Appointment

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I had another doctor's appointment this past Thursday. It had been two months since my last appointment so I experienced big changes in the interim, and my doctor was quite impressed. I showed him that I could extend all of my fingers upward and that only my middle finger was really lagging behind. He explained that that is actually normal and is exactly what he would expect if I had undergone a surgery to my forearm muscle. Then he said "It's just your muscle now. Your nerve is healed!" That was excellent news indeed. I do think my nerve still might have some recovering to do yet, but things are looking really good. My doctor didn't even mention anything about a future surgery, so there's a good chance that I won't need one. The goal now is to heal that muscle! I am going to continue with all the healthy things I've been doing, including getting lots of sleep, eating nutritious food, exercising, and weightlifting (squats and arms with light

Surfacing

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Ever since my injury, I've felt like I'm underwater. In the dark and unable to see, with life filtered through the deep. Muffled sounds, bubbles, confusion. I was treading water and never sure whether I would be able to breathe again. To feel safe. To be back in the world I know. Full of light and air. I was drowning. But just in the past few days, I have felt like I am finally reaching the surface, escaping that place. I am no longer surrounded by the unknown. I am filling my lungs with oxygen. I am opening my eyes and seeing the familiar colors of the world around me. I know this place and I can breathe. My body is working again and I will be okay. I am safe.