Surfacing

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Ever since my injury, I've felt like I'm underwater. In the dark and unable to see, with life filtered through the deep. Muffled sounds, bubbles, confusion.

I was treading water and never sure whether I would be able to breathe again. To feel safe. To be back in the world I know. Full of light and air.

I was drowning.

But just in the past few days, I have felt like I am finally reaching the surface, escaping that place. I am no longer surrounded by the unknown. I am filling my lungs with oxygen. I am opening my eyes and seeing the familiar colors of the world around me.

I know this place and I can breathe.

My body is working again and I will be okay.

I am safe.

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